Another Night Wasted.

Barely a year has passed since I stepped out of Malaysia.

I now realize that some things which I held dear, to boost my self-worth, are nothing.

I cannot even spurn the people whom I used to spurn.

I’m going down.

I am a disgrace to the Chinese people, and to the Malaysian people in general.

I don’t fit in anywhere. I am an outcast wherever I go.

I want to reach out to others, but I am limited by my lack of exposure. And I have only my indolence to blame.